No regrets...

I've been thinking for the past couple of weeks how boring my life actually is. like i do nothing. at all. And my life is full of regrets.. i was watching the video of Kim K's letter to herself and it got me thinking of what i would write to my younger self, I have too many regrets.. i want to start living so i was scrolling through my pinterest and i found this picture which summarized what i had been feeling so im expanding on it for the rest of you :) ENJOY..

\\LIVE//

Ever since I was a little girl I've wanted to go somewhere..... somewhere where the world was perfect, where there was no fighting or war or people telling me how imperfect I was/am...... I used to share a room with my brother when we were super little and when we went to bed at night we used to pretend that our beds were spaceships and that our minds were space..... we'd go and pick up all our friends and then go off to meet up at anywhere I guess but it was somewhere that we could just get away..... Looking back I don't know what sparked that fairy-tale but I do know that what ever it was it was and still is one of my best memories of my childhood.... 

\\TRAVEL//

All my life i've wanted to go to Paris. But i also have found myself wanting to go to America for a gap year lately so i think that really i just want to travel, to explore more, to embrace my inner child.. like the other night at youth we were playing hide and seek, in the dark, and it was sooo fun because i love just exploring and finding new things.., discovering. 

\\ADVENTURE// 

I've been finding that you dont have to travel to have an adventure.. ive been reading through the Trixie Belden series (which i was absolutely obsessed with when i was younger) and they had adventures in their own backyards.. anyways so near the end of last year i posted my bucket list of things i wanted to do before i finished school (meaning uni because there's no way ill finish it all by the time i leave high school.. and uni counts as high school doesn't it? ) and so many of them are literally do-able in Auckland.. what im getting at is i want to have an unforgettable adventure, in my own backyard.

\\BLESS//

My greatest goal in life is to show the forgotten and helpless that the world isn't just made up of haters, and that there are people out there who care about others. I've been really encouraged lately by the work of Hannah Brencher. She heads up a company that anonymously sends out love letters to people who have been nominated by their friends and family. The letters are written to absolute strangers by strangers.. i personally think its such a cool idea and have started carrying a couple around in my bags with me to share or place where i feel needed... 

\\DON'T BE SORRY//

A quote I love says to live life with no regrets and I guess in a way that's what I do...... im trying really hard to minimize the amounts of times I say 'oh why did I do that' and instead say '' ok I did that how can I fix it or live with it" ........... people, myself included need to learn that everyone makes mistakes and that nobody is perfect.

xoxox lavinia

wise words of a night owl

" i think life isn't about knowing.. if you knew you could predict and it would be boring... there's a certain magic to not knowing.. it gives the element of surprise, and sometimes those surprises are bad but ive come to find the good surprises surpass by far the bad ones and they are what make life worth living.. "

and i think its only when you truly experience life it
makes you truly grateful for what you have.

 xoxox lavinia

mondayitis

i realized a lot of things today. like the fact that there's no point in crushing on that guy in the year above cos he'll never accept you. and that those girls who you think are so cool aren't actually because all they do is complain and gossip and kill peoples dreams. and even when you feel like your having the worst day ever.. it can get worst. and that NOBODY CARES about the fact that you have the worst headache ever and that you feel like someone kicked you in the head, they don't care, never have and tbh they probably never will, to them your just that invisible thing that sticks to the bottom of their shoe.. like ew, and when he greets you by saying ew, he actually means it literally, its not an inside joke, its the sad truth... and when you realize that your behind in all your class' and all you want to do is run away because you have to write three essays by lunchtime tomorrow and just thinking about it gives you an even worse headache and before you know it the bell rings and your saved... for the next seventeen hours at least until you rock up on the bus and have to start it all over again.. all i can say is good luck.

and that mountains of books is your homework that was due two weeks ago..

xoxox lavinia